Less than two weeks until this year is over (if you listen very carefully, you can hear the faint singing of angels). It's a good thing, too, because 2012 has long overstayed its welcome. On New Year's Eve, I will dust off my hands and tell that S.O.B to get the hell out.
Yes, this year has been that bad.
It's funny how some years can pass in a haze, with nothing notable standing out in them. They're simply filled with the humdrum and monotony of day-to-day life. But then there are those years that are permanently etched in our brain: the year we graduated high school/college/got married/gave birth, etc. Of course, those are all good times and events that we label as some of our happiest. But sometimes the years mark not-so-happy times: death/divorce/illness/job loss, etc.
I'm happy to say that no one close to me has died, and I'm still happily married, yet it has still been one of the most trying years of my life. I'm not going to blabber all my woes for everyone and their brother to read (I'll leave that to my drama-loving relatives on Facebook, HA!), but I will say that it has, literally, been one thing after another. It feels like every part of who I am has been tested during these last twelve months . I've always prided myself on being a strong woman, but my God, I have crumbled into a heap of tears more than once this year. I have a very strong faith in God, and I do believe there's a reason for everything, but a couple of times I've found myself thinking, "Really? REALLY, GOD?!?! Are you kidding me right now?" It seems like just when I have the whole walking around with fifty pounds of weight on my shoulders thing figured out, God slaps on another ten pounds.
Up until a few months ago, I thought I had things figured out. I thought I knew exactly how my life was going to play out. But now I'm not so sure. I have no idea what the next year will hold, and I admit, it scares this anal, anxiety-prone, type "A" girl to death.
Regardless of all the crap I've been through this year, I'm so incredibly thankful for my healthy, loving, and all-around amazing children. And as eager as I am to say adios to 2012, I will definitely be counting all of my many blessings on Christmas.
With that, I wish you all a VERY Merry Christmas and a HAPPY New year :) May it be filled with good time and happy, take-your-breath-away moments!